Last week, when I was deciding what I would blog about this week, I had settled on a double post, combining a happy birthday Nigel Bruce, and a couple cute/funny things I’d learned about Basil Rathbone – but yesterday, when I was watching interviews with Michael Emerson to while away the time before the Super Bowl came on, I came across a YouTube video which was titled, UNKNOWN by Lee Blessing, which I thought was some sort of poem that Emerson was quoting. I clicked on it, and was surprised that it was not a poem, but just him talking, only talking in the character of a school teacher. My pleasant surprise and interest soon turned to sober shock and even slight alarm. Michael Emerson was quoting the statement that a man had made after seeing a young man commit suicide by jumping in front of a train.
I felt sick as I listened to it. I’ve not experienced actually seeing someone commit suicide, but someone very dear to me has committed suicide, and someone even closer to me has informed me of a time in her life when she considered taking her own life. What I am trying to say is that I am not foreign to the feelings communicated in this video, in fact I am still all too close to them.
He said it was almost like “magic.” Black magic, I would say, but I know absolutely exactly what he meant. “…I wanted it to remain magic, which is to say, real, but impossible – shocking – blinding, even, in a way…” The words explain my very feelings at the time of my tragedy.
I was stunned. It was – incredible – so horrible, so terrible – so true.
Be warned. There are people everywhere, people who may very well seem happy and well, they may be young, they may be religious, but you never know. It can happen, it can happen to the people you least expected it to happen to. To the people you thought could never do it. Don’t close your eyes to the fact that people taking their own life is becoming more prevalent than ever before. Be aware. Be watchful. Do your best to help. Don’t let the fact that it’s “a perfect day, in a free country,” blind you to this incredibly important “lesson,” this “whispered warning.”
I’m going to include a link to the original video because it was so impactful to me. But be forewarned – it may be the most sobering thing I have ever seen in my entire life. If you are affected deeply by things of this sort, you may not want to watch it. But even so you may, because if I had known what it was before I watched it, I don’t think I would have watched it, but now that I have, I think it was good for me to – very, very hard, but good for me. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hFOShJEWQac
I am now going to include the lyrics to the song that was of the most comfort to me in my tragedy, just because this was a very deep and sober post, and I feel I should not end this without a statement of the hope of God and Christ Jesus.
Praise God, from Whom all blessings flow;
Praise Him, all creatures here below;
Praise Him above, ye heav’nly host;
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.